✨The Cozmas That Almost Was

A tiny confession wrapped in twinkle lights.

Today is December 1.
Which means it should be day one of Cozmas.
My cozy mystery readathon, baby. The event I’ve created, nurtured, decorated with metaphorical tinsel, and hosted since 2017.

This year? I’ve been planning this thing like a woman possessed.
Ideas scribbled everywhere. Video lists. Post drafts. Notes about maybe contacting authors. Pages and pages and pages of cozy chaos. I’ve practically been a one-woman North Pole workshop.

And yet… here we are. No launch. No intro video. No “let’s do this!” moment.

Because the truth is: I haven’t been the most active or productive lately.
My follower count has dipped, some people have drifted, and every time I open an app, I feel the little sting of, “Wow, everyone else is thriving. And I’m… here. Tired. Scrolling.”

Comparison is such a joy-thief.
And I swear, some days I feel like I’m letting people down just by not showing up in the way I used to.

But then I remind myself of the real magic of all this.
Because this silly little hobby I started before marriage, before kids, before books, before everything… it brought me YOU. It brought me some of the most important, wonderful humans in my entire life.

That’s the whole point.
Finding my people.
Finding you.

I miss making videos. Oh my gosh, you should SEE the notebook chaos. Pages of ideas, outlines, thumbnails, Patreon plans, scripts, cozy dreams scribbled in eight different gel pens. The desire is there. The spark is there. The time… is not.

Between raising two little tornadoes, wanting time with my husband, and actually enjoying the cozy hobbies I’ve picked up along the way, it’s so hard to stop mid-moment and think, “Hey Courtny… grab the camera!”
My brain is just not in Creator Mode right now. It’s in Survive December Mode.

I don’t fully know why I’m sharing all this, maybe because I miss you. Maybe because I miss the rhythm of creating. Maybe because I needed to say out loud that I’m in a different season of life right now, and it’s okay.

So here’s what I’ll say instead:

Please celebrate the 12 Days of Cozmas anyway.
Make your own versions.
Bake the cookies, read the cozies, share your setups, show off your twinkle lights. Let this be a choose-your-own-cozy adventure.

And if you do celebrate?
Tell me. I would genuinely love to see your cozy Christmas magic in whatever form it takes.

I’ll be cheering you on from inside my blanket fort.

💛 Courtny

🎄 The Cozmas Archive

For anyone who wants to revisit past years or borrow some inspiration, here are a few 12 Days of Cozmas Announcement blasts from the past: